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December 19th, 2005
11:35 pm
Hiya Whorld. (intended)
So. I have fairly thoroughly explored an MMO gaming addiction. It can be quite fulfilling. Friends are made, and sometimes these friendships grow to be more than just friendships (yes, I do have a friend who is dating someone they met in Warcraft, and no, neither of them are freaks... both lovely in fact). Unfortunately the life of an MMO player tends to be one of inert solitude. Exercise and health can fall by the way, to be replaced by uber-micro and stats.
The enjoyment one derives from MMO play is real... even to the extent of leaping and whooping, and the waking up of housemates with early morning cries of "Oh my god, Ragnaros down! w0000000t!". ^_^
"Moderation is best in all things." - Theognis, 570[?]-490[?] BCE
"Moderation in all things? But this saying itself is immoderate. For example, who wants to have a moderate orgasm?" - Anonymous
Except for those rare housemate-waking moments, Warcraft (and I dare to say, any MMO), isn't exactly an experience to be likened to orgasm, and I think it is probably best enjoyed in moderation. Cutting to the chase... I figure, given my lack of moderation of late, I'd best swing the other way for a bit. Minimal Warcraft only for me from now on, and for the past two weeks.
So... I've been ejoying my new... "real" life. Once again I'm diving in to my movie downloading "addiction" (heh). I recently spent a week at my parents house, housesitting alone. It was great. It was like being at a health resort. Morning and evening swims in the yummy salt water pool, sunbaking next to the adoring labrador, drinking the perfect amount of white russians (for my heart, I swear!). I also managed to watch a nice amount of Oprah and Bert and make a few pathetic attempts at Christmas shopping. The first time I bought nothing. The next I picked up one gift with a definite target, and bought some good books... I'm sure I can't think of someone who'll like them.
...then it was off to the coast for a few days, which was nice, but the weather was bad and the water was cold. :/
Albury > Bateman's Bay? :0
No... but yes.
So... I am unemployed. What should I do? Should I volunteer to go to Guatemala and teach English? Maybe take up a film studies course somewhere while working some mindless job? I can't stand the thought of taking another programming job... not yet anyway. Even the thought of it makes my heart beat faster... fear, stress. Maybe I do a short course in network admin, and stay connected to my field... a safe option.
I'm a little terrified, but I can say that with a smile on my face :)
I can't just continue eating away my savings. I'm happy for the moment... but the little man in my head isn't going away. He's stepping a little closer each day. He has a briefcase. I think it might contain some samples for my life. A few shades of blue and green for my career, or some yellow and white if sir is feeling adventurous... a couple of paint testers for my location.
Hmm... thanks for your time. I'm going to have a ciggy.
(ps: there ya go Mish, an LJ entry)
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September 7th, 2005
12:37 pm
I figured that a couple of WoW players might stumble across me... so I thought I'd post this:
http://wow.allakhazam.com/profile.html?251803
That's my char on Mal'Ganis.
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August 24th, 2005
05:44 pm
On the off chance that someone reads my LJ that doesn't read Als (unlikely), I suggest that y'all head over to http://www.google.com/talk/ and pick yourself up a shiny new Google Talk client. It's thexier than MSN. It's made by Google, and therefore is great.
I am 2drumfuqs@gmail.com
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August 23rd, 2005
02:51 pm
Just saw this on /.
"Billboards in the UK have been using Bluetooth to beam media clips at passing cellular phones. The system has been dubbed Bluecasting and 17,000 people accepted the ads. When billboards know your name that's when to really worry"
That last sentence filled my heart with a cold cold fear. I can see underground researchers in the future poring over ancient archives from Slashdot, seeing things like that, and wondering why we didn't see it coming sooner...
The robots are coming I tells ya. I'm not too worried for the present, but Big Brother will be more and more of a reality in the disturbingly near future as our right to privacy is slowly stripped down to nothing.
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August 22nd, 2005
03:02 pm
Let that be a lesson to me...
Should I ever be installing OCZ Gold EL PC3200 2-2-2-5 BH-5 Dual Channel again, I will know that a PFN_LIST_CORRUPT BSOD STOP message means that I should turn my DRAM voltage up from the stock 2.6V to 2.8V... cause everyone knows that BH-5 is voltage hungry. Silly me!
Other lessons learned with the arrival of my new computer is that it can be non trivial to figure out how to attach a motherboard to a case, and that one should always buy a floppy drive... especially if one wishes to set up one's hard drives in a RAID configuration. *SIGH*
So anyway... that's enough nerding.
Well... flights to and from Perth are booked, as is the leave. w00t :)
Return to Perth for $400. Qantas have a domestic flights sale on, so keep them in mind if you're looking for cheap airfares.
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August 15th, 2005
01:59 pm
So I've decided to take a holiday or two.
Well... I'm currently in the midst of a fairly long holiday...a holiday from the world. Some might say that's it's not healthy, and to them I say "Maybe it is.". My main priority at the moment is to not worry too much about what anyone else thinks and to hold on to my job with both hands. I'm not in the least bit concerned with keeping in touch with people, or meeting new people. I need time out from the world, and I'm taking it.
I'm going to Perth for about a week in late October to visit my old school friend Justin. It will be great. We're going to do all sorts of old person touristy crap... like look at scenery, walk along a really long jetty, visit wineries n shiz.
Then I'm gonna go to Thailand in late November w000t. My first overseas jaunt. Unless he bails =_= and I don't think he will for that would bring my terrifying wrath upon him, Mikey is coming on that one with me. We will have le fun what with all the hiking and the elephant riding and the rafting and the small hill tribe folk watching and the shiny temple appreciation and the incredibly lovely natural beauty gazing and stuff.
My X800 arrived today. Heaviest graphics card EVAH 0_0
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August 11th, 2005
01:48 pm - I'll bring you down if it's the last thing...
[snip from email convo]
Our money-driven society becomes more and more streamlined every year. In order to keep up with the speed and success of it all, everyone has to sacrifice relaxation time or time with friends until eventually everyone will be on the path to nervous breakdown.... too busy worrying about work, or making sure their kids are prepared for difficult adult life, or saving money for the future, or trying to keep fit, or re-educating so as not to become obsolete or blah blah blah.
The "success" of western democratic society means that life is relatively easy, particularly in Australia, even for those who don't have jobs. There is nothing to struggle for, no uniting cause, no reason to go on other than to make babies, get richer and keep up with the Jones'.
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I bought a computer today. When it arrives I will love it like an extremely fast silvery grey pet turtle... minus the water... although it's quite overclockable, so I may invest in 1337 water cooling at some point.
Imagine if you can a zero legged beast made up of:
1 x DFI LANPARTY UT nF4 Ultra-D 939
1 x AMD Athlon 64 3200+ 939 Venice Core
1 x OCZ Gold PC-3200 EL 1024Mb/1Gb (2x512) 2-2-2-5
1 x Antec P160WF Case of awesomeness
1 x Antec TrueBlue 2.0 480w PSU
2 x Seagate ST3250823AS 250Gb 8M SATA NCQ (should have bought SATA II drives tho... may still swap that)
1 x Pioneer 109 Dual Layer 16x DVD+-RW Beige <- beige :(
1 x Logitech Z-5500 5.1 THX Speakers
1 x XpertVision ATI Radeon X800 (core 392MHz) 256MB 256bit DDR3 PCIEX16 with DVI-I and TV Out <- lol at the ridiculous detail in the product name
I am yet to purchase a monitor. I think I'll get a Hyundai L90D+ 8ms 19" LCD. I also need to buy myself a nice keyboard... hrmmm...
ok bye.
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July 8th, 2005
12:55 pm - Why do they do it?
Am I a narcissist? No. I don't think I am very important, and I certainly don't feel much love for myself.
I can't see what my future holds. I would like to travel here or there, I would like to own this or that, I would like to meet that certain someone. My motivation to achieve these goals is extremely low. Is that because they are selfish goals with no real point to them except to provide me with pleasure?
So many people live their lives indulging in any pleasure that they can afford, keeping up appearances so people are impressed with them, working hard to be successful, procreating to experience the joys of parenthood, being typical humans. What drives all those people? Am I missing some vital ingredient that will make we want those things?
Can I buy that ingredient? Do I want to? Have I taken the red pill? (http://www.arrod.co.uk/essays/matrix.php)
Is it my fervent desire for honesty and truth in all things that makes me this way? I had a Wingman once. I wonder if he felt this way?
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Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/thinking.gif) contemplative
Current Music: The hum of the heater
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11:52 am - Sitting on cushions because my chair isn't high enough
I am a boy, a man, a lonely human. I live in a clean professional city, filled partly with hard working people, partly with young hopeful bright-eyed students, partly with the elderly who've had their day in the rat race and have earned their spot in that nice leafy suburb, safely distanced from the inner-city. I wonder if anyone feels like I feel. I don't think so, and I realise what that makes me, and how it sounds.
What do all these people do with their lives? What does the average human spend all those years doing? It seems to me that we are told what to want, and then expected to strive for it. You are a white male in his twenties with a university degree. You are sentenced to spend the next 40 odd years of your life working 5 days a week, and doing so in the best hours of the day. Days spent in the sun will become a treat, even though the sun will shine down on your city almost every day. You will work for money. Most of the money that your work generates will go to other people. When you aren't at work, you will have hobbys to spend time on and you will go out to pubs/clubs/restaurants/sporting events/theatre.
Is the entire point of our existence to make money so that we can spend it on progressively more and more expensive pursuits of pleasure?
I feel numb. People tell me that I should become more active, join clubs, get out more, do more exercise. Apparently doing those things will make me feel like I can work hard again, and go out and meet people. Those people are missing the point. I don't want to work hard for money. I don't want to go out to the usual places to socialise. Those things seem selfish and futile to me.
If I am going to work hard, why can it not be for a worthy cause? If I am going to go out to socialise, why would I want to go to places full of people in disguise?
I am in a fake world full of shiny plastic people.
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Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/sad.gif) depressed
Current Music: The hum of the computer
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August 23rd, 2004
12:44 pm - *sigh*
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) kidreptile's</span> first post pretty much sums it up for me too.
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